Aug21

The best laid plans

I want you to know your mothers heart. You start 3rd grade and kindergarten tommorow. You have so much promise. So much hope for a bright, fun year. Dad gave you each beautiful blessings tonight and you are ready. We talked about your favorite breakfast, what you want for lunch and what to expect on your first day in a new school and your new clothes have been through a fashion show and laid out for the morning. I find myself wondering, as I do every year about this time, did I take advantage of every opportunity to have fun with you this summer? Did I teach you how to be better little people and prepare you for another year where we, your parents are not your main influence? No matter how much I wonder, tommorow morning is coming whether I want it to or not, and I dont. I dont want you to grow up, I want you to be innocent and safe and have no troubles in life. I want to be with you, I will miss you so much. Its not time off for me, its me missing what makes my life worthwhile and what makes me truly, genuinly happy. The best laid plans are the ones that always leave me wondering if I am doing it right. Looking at you, I know I am. You both are our greatest hope, joy, gift and accomplishment. Gosh, Im gonna miss you and these long summer days spent together picking tomatoes off the vine and playing on the slip n slide.  Im so blessed to be your mom.