Aug10

Refined

Whatever you do, do.not. pray for patience unless you really want it tested. Nothing seems to be easy or come easily lately, like the last year! Everything seems a struggle. I found myself praying for patience last year when I was feeling frusterated by how short I became with you both from time to time. What came of that prayer was months of life not going right. All of the deepest and most simple desires of my heart were just not happening. And I was becoming crippled with fear to even TRY to make any changes. I felt so out of control over my own life. Lest you think Im not grateful for my blessings, its the contrary. In fact, Ive learned through this photo project that everyday brings beatiful blessings. What I've learned through having my patience tested, is that going through hard times emotionally, physically, financially, whatever it may be, will in the end, make you a stronger more capable human being. You will find confidence in yourself that you thought couldnt be. You will grow closer to the Lord and realize that HE is truly the one in charge. Not you. And the beautiful thing about that, is that he loves you so much, he knows whats best for you, even if you dont agree. Everyday is a gift. I love my little family. Today, a huge desire of my heart was granted! Such a simple request of wanting to be independent and provide a home of our own for our family is coming true. I find myself teary eyed with gratefullness. Hard times make the really great blessings even that much sweeter.